I almost didn’t go

You see as of late I have been struggling with the calling on my life that God has given me. If you know my story then you know that the calling was placed on my heart when I begged God to take my life but he didn’t. He told me to preach my testimony to whom he desires. So the last year to two years that hasn’t happened. As my precious wife n family have had an extremely hard year the calling on my life had been all but forgotten. My wife started the amazing carrier that God has called her to do. God placed on my heart to start Rise Above ministry. But Rise Above is not the calling for my life that God has called me to.

This past Sunday morning after being up way to late we decided to sleep in a bit. If we woke up in time to make church then we would go. Extremely physically tired emotionally tired we woke up and the thought of not going crossed my mind. Yep a church leader can miss once in a blue moon right? So we go and during worship I heard the voice of our savior ring deep within me reminding me what he actually called me to do. To preach my testimony to whom he deems necessary. And as my beautiful wife Saturday night reminded me it was to recovering addicts. So God started to show me who I need to speak with. The people he wanted me to reach out to. It took everything I had not to crumble at his weight upon me. I lost all train of thought I could not even tell you what song they were singing. Then as pastor preached The Lord was speaking to me through the message. Just reconfirming everything that he has promised me from the past. It took my wife with a bloody tongue not to tell me I told you so on that 10 minute ride home. But even with a bloody tongue I still heard it a few times.

So as I am getting ready for Rise Above God spoke to me once again Sunday night.

Gen 28 12-16 And he dreamed: A stairway was set on the ground with its top reaching the sky, and God’s angels were going up and down on it. The Lord was standing there beside him, saying, “I am the Lord , the God of your father Abraham and the God of Isaac. I will give you and your offspring the land on which you are lying. Your offspring will be like the dust of the earth, and you will spread out toward the west, the east, the north, and the south. All the peoples on earth will be blessed through you and your offspring. Look, I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go. I will bring you back to this land, for I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he said, “Surely the Lord is in this place, and I did not know it.”

Wow how powerful is it that the Lord God spoke and promised him and reassured the Abrahamic covenant. How powerful is it when He speaks to us? How powerful is it when we hear his voice and he promises to never leave us to always provide. Wow I have chills remembering when I first heard his voice.

But then what happens?

Then Jacob made a vow: “If God will be with me and watch over me during this journey I’m making, if he provides me with food to eat and clothing to wear, and if I return safely to my father’s family, then the Lord will be my God.

Genesis 28:20‭-‬21 CSB

What is the if’s ?? God just promised him now he had ifs for all the promises from God. Which brings me to my point.

HOW QUICK DO WE FORGET THE PROMISES FROM GOD. Jacob himself it took two verses to forget. If this and if that is what we all tend to do when we don’t receive His promise to us in OUR time.

So after the service Sunday morning a gentleman walked up to my wife and I and asked us to come speak this Thursday and his men’s home. What is crazy is the last vision God showed me to speak to was this man. I know that I am to preach my testimony to whom He deems necessary. And right now Jesus is pointing to drug rehabs in our area.

So pray for my wife and I and tomorrow we speak once again on the grace and mercy of our amazing God. Be blessed my friends and if you need help in knowing the one true King the Savior from the Cross Jesus Christ himself just let me know and I can help.

Author: Grace of the King

Recovered addict father and husband. Most say you can't recover from drugs and alcohol but you can with the blood of the Lamb.

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